Wow - I'm not crazy

First of all, if you are new here from ICLW, welcome! You can read a short version of our story or a little about me, or just dive right in!

So, I know my post about my pain in my butt was rather unappetizing...can you stand one more? I promise this one will not be as graphic!

Some of you know that we were living in two places for the past year and a half.. our home in Texas, and our temporary home in California. Since we will have the babies in Texas, and the doc says no travel after 6 months, our time in California came to an end this week.

So, my last week in California.. not a good week for me to be in so much pain. I relly wanted to enjoy myself, had lunch and dinner plans each day, and a lot of packing and errand-running to do. I flew home yesterday, and Carlos is driving cross-country with a carful of stuff we accumulated over our California Adventure.

Early Friday morning before my flight, Carlos made me call the OB and see if I can get in. I was bleeding constantly, and he was concerned about infection. I am so thankful that I know exactly where the blood is coming from.

I was able to make an appointment, and due to airline delays, I was only 30 minutes late. The delay worked in my favor, though, as I got to see the main doctor that leads the practice and not the midwife. It was my first time to meet her.

The nurse that took me to the waiting room asked what I was coming in for and then shared that, yep, she had them too, and oh yes, they are bad, and they never go away. I'm like, what? They never go away?? She says, well, my son is 5 years old. That's all I can say.

I am sitting there thinking how does anyone deal with this kind of pain for 5 years? Other people have said the same thing. Oh yeah, most pregnant women get them. Yeah, they hurt and are uncomfortable. Hmmm.. I'm sorry.

So, I laid on my side on my side and waited for the doctor. I told her about the pain. I explained that when I am sitting it hurts, there is a bit of a dull pain constantly, even when I find a comfortbale position. But then when I have to move, even if I just move my my big toe, I get a shooting pain up my body starting at my butt.

After listening intently to me (I LOVE this woman) she says, "Let's take a look."

The first words out of her mouth made me cry. She said, "Oh wow. I compleltely see why you are in so much pain. We need to get you to a general surgeon. These are not normal hemmoroids. Have you seen them?"

For a brief moment, I thought about telling her I had Carlos take a photo, but it was really easier just to say no. Our little secret, ok, blogosphere?

She grabbed a mirror and showed me. She said. "Normal" hemmorroids are about one tenth the size of those. By now I have two, each the size of a large grape. Like we are talking the California ones that are really big and sweet.

So, she starts telling me about the soctor and says that I will need to tell the surgeon that I'm pregnant, and we might need to consider delaying the surgery until I'm further along in the pregnancy, since there is a chance, albeit small, that I would have to deliver during the surgery if something goes wrong.

That scares me a little bit, but honestly, at this point I feel so much better knowing this is not normal. That I really don't have to deal with this daily excrutiatng pain for the next 5 years. That what I have been through this week is not a normal part of pregnancy. That my feelings and pain were validated. My hemorroids are severely painfully out of the ordinary and that requires a specialist and proabbly surgery.

She also told me, yeah, your over the counter stuff you've been using, yes, that's not goign to help. So, she also called in a prescription suppository and a numbing agent with lidocaine, that I will be picking up from the pharmacist today. Funny, my first thought, was "suppositories, nothing new, I did that in my first trimester with the progesterone." But, oh, different kind of suppositories. Wow. Ok, I guess I'll figure that out, too. Oopss.. was that TMI?

Anyway, that's the update from here. I should code these posts about this topic so you can skip them if you want, but I will continue the saga after I am able to get an appointment with the surgeon, hopefully early next week.

I am so so thankful for these babies! They are moving a lot, and it makes me so so happy.

Now off, to read some blogs! Please let me know you were here. Thanks for reading!