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Monday, June 1, 2009

IVF #1 is oficially over.

So finally.. it's over.

I went in for my beta this morning. I knew when the RE, instead of the nurse called, that it was not good news.

My beta was 15. It dropped for the first time. He doesn't think it was ectopic, just an early miscarriage.

Since I was pregnant, he says I need to wait to try a frozen cycle. So, that means July. But the last two weeks in July, I'll be in an Executive Training program in Massachusetts. So, that means August.

I will probably update the blog at least a few times between now and then. You'll all want to know when AF comes, right? :) I've really enjoyed writing and "meeting" so many people. Thanks for all your support.

I plan to go home this weekend, get my nails done, drink some wine, go running, and just enjoy not worrying about constant betas, acupuncture, appointments, etc.

I'm sad, of course, but hopeful and thankful that we will be parents soon! Thank God for our four totsicles.. Just praying they thaw well when the time comes!

17 comments:

donna said...

Here's a hug. I wish I had more to offer.

Erin W. said...

Big hugs. Glad that you will be able to be "carefree" this weekend though. YAY to totsicles!! :D lol (that makes me giggle every time I see it)

Hillary said...

I'm so sorry it didn't turn out like we'd all hoped. It's so unfair. But you seem to have such a great, positive attitude, which I really admire. And hurray for frozen embryos!

If ours doesn't work, and I'm pretty much feeling it won't, we probably wouldn't try again until August (at the earliest) too. So maybe we'll be cycling again together!

KJ said...

Gabby- I sent you an email too but I wanted to post. Someday you'll be holding your baby in your arms and this first cycle will be part of a journey that was totally worth it. Hugs to you and Carlos.

Our Journey... said...

I am so sorry. I don't know what else to say. Been there, done that. Not fun at all. Hang in there.

chrys said...

oh, sweet friend. praying for you right this minute.

your attitude is fantastic, by the way.

chrys

Heide said...

Ahh, darling, I'm sad for you. I had such a strong feeling that it was going to be positive the first time around. I truly believe that each challenge you face will just add to the joy when you do become parents. It's my experience that those who have struggled have so much more appreciation than those who haven't. AND, I 100% belive that your time will come!! Can't wait until August...

musicmakermomma said...

You have a great attitude, so sorry things didn't work out this time. But August is just around the corner, and you can use this time to do all the non-pregnant stuff (like drink wine coolers and exercise and hot tubbing or whatever you like to do) It would be better to be preggo, but if you can't be that YET, live it up!

Hope you will keep us posted on the general goings on til your next cycle.

'Murgdan' said...

I'm so sorry. Cheers to the FET. I'm right here with you.

BB said...

Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this! {HUGS} I admire your strength... I am feeling a little scared. Take care!

Michele said...

dammit! i am so sorry :( big hugs you way...

twoweekwait said...

*hugs* Sigh. This isn't easy. I hope you are doing okay. If you're feeling good now that's awesome but don't be hard on yourself if you feel down about it too later.

Flower said...

So sorry. I will keep you company during the FET (mines should be around that time too)

Brenna said...

I'm so sorry. I was wishing and hoping for you that the numbers would continue to creep up! But yes, 4 snowbabies is a very promising start to your FET in August. In the meantime, I'll all for enjoying wine and jogging and coffee and all of those things you had to give up during treatment! Please keep us posted on how things are going--I for one fully intend to stalk you during your FET, so please keep writing! :)

Ms. Perky said...

I'm really sorry about this news - wishing you the very best luck with an FET this summer. I just read your whole blog to get your back story and I know this must be so difficult.

I'm so proud of you for overcoming your fear of needles to move through the IVF cycle - I have no fear of needles and even for me, my first few stim injections were nervewracking. I can't imagine how hard it would have been had I been needlephobic.

Mo and Will said...

Gabby,

So sorry this cycle didn't work out. I'm really glad too that you have the four frozens. Surely there's a baby in there! Take good care of yourself.

Mo

Megan said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you have found a plan to move forward.